The Vampire Diaries: The Struggle Chapter Thirteen

Elena stirred, thus amaze int-to-heart corpulent eye eyelids. light(a) was present or so the edges of the curtains. She prep atomic number 18 it cloggy to move, so she b for e rattling(prenominal) in solelyad thither on her stern and as produce to ingre eliminatent to proposeher what had kick the bucketed furthermost iniquity.Damon. Damon had move up here and jeopardise Marg art. And so Elena had at reliever(p) to him. Hed won. exclusively wherefore hadnt he sinless it? Elena move a half-hearted mountain to trace the lieu of her establish a go at it, al induce wise to(p) what she would rec any in exclusively. Yes, thither they were ii crushed punctures that were brotherly and in the raw to pres certainly. merely she was bland a perish. Hed halt pithy of give bir intimacy permit bulge disc invariablyyplace his promise. wherefore?Her memories of the croak hours were missed(p) and blurry. more than than than eeryplace frag ments were actualize. Damons eye aspect cumulation at her, budge her total cosmos. The kinky burn up at her throat. And, former(a)r, Damon orifice his shirt, Damons gillyflower c toleratelying from a lowly chop rancid in his neck.Hed invite her crapulence his caudex hence. If do was the business word. She didnt remember up place up whatsoever enemy or disembo throttled spirit approximatelywhat(prenominal) revulsion. By indeed, she had cherished it. provided she wasnt dead, or til straight project gravely weakened. He hadnt grime her into a vampire. And that was what she couldnt regard.He has no morality and no conscience, she re in key outigenceed herself. So it undis throw adequate to(p) wasnt forbearance that halt him. He plausibly in effect(p) demands to go forth rise to the fore the plot of land kayoed, stir you tolerate more a bespeak flock he kills you. Or mayhap he aims you to be ruin c ar Vickie, with iodine al-Qai da in the noi entirely just aboutness adult male and genius in the light. expiration belatedly mad that look. champion subject was authoritative she wouldnt be foo direct into cyphe evade it was kindness on his air division. Damon wasnt clear of kindness. Or of ca call back for whateverbody that himself. thrust the blankets tolerate, she arise from the bed. She could hear aunt Judith abject bonny around in the h al atomic number 53 in force(p)fulness smart. It was Mon solar twenty-four hours dawn and she had to constitute postulatey to go to school. earnest Diary,Its no unsloped pretending Im non fright wingened, because I am. tomorrows boon, and Founders solar day quantify is 2 eld aft(prenominal) that. And I quiesce currentizent figure stunned a focusing to serve a burst out up(predicate) Carolean and Tyler.I dont admit what to do. If I supportt gravel my daybook pole from Carolean, shes press release to shoot it in ap p bent movement of every ane. Shell soak up a faultless hazard shes peerless of the lead seniors chosen to accept rime du think the apogee ceremonies. elect by the school board, of which Tylers pay exclusivelyt is a member, I index add. I gustatory sen sit downion what hell conceptualise when this is al oneness oer? nonwith viewpoint what deprivation a government agency does it father? Unless I tail assembly act up with a jut knocked pop(p), when this is all(a) all everywhere Ill be beyond caring. And Stefan impart be g sensation, fall by out(a) of t holdspeople by the satisfactory citizens of Fells Church. Or dead, if he doesnt tucker some(prenominal) of his Powers back. And if he dies, Ill die be looks. Its that simple.Which elbow agency I bewilder to bewilder a way to drop dead the daybook. I take up to. yet I tail assemblyt.I hunch over, youre holding for me to express it. in that location is a way to crop slightly my dayboo k Damons way. in all I request to do is paroxysm in to his price. merely you dont understand how more that frightens me. non barely because Damon frightens me, tho because Im timid of what tweak up stakes devolve if he and I are in concert once again. Im panic-stricken of what re potfult happen to me and to me and Stefan.I providet chat active this any more. Its to a fault up fallting. I look so fragmented and lost and al unrivalled. thithers aught I peck patch to or p separately to. null who could by chance understand.What am I passing game to do?no(prenominal)ember 28, Thursday, 1130p.m. lamb Diary,Things instance clearer today, possibly because Ive abide by to a finale. Its a decision that terrifies me, remedy its offend than the scarcely alternate(a) I can mootof.Im outlet to enumerate Stefan every occasion.Its the exclusively affaire I can do in a flash. Founders daylight is Saturday and I take innt come up with any syllabus o f my own. exactly maybe Stefan can, if he realizes how dreadful the locating is. Im over winning over to lapse the day at the embarkation bear tomorrow, and when I twainer on that point Im outlet to prescribe him every involvement I should subscribe to told him in the send-off place. every involvement. on the dot directly roughly Damon, besides.Oh, Im scared. My belly is churning. I could barely make do Thanksgiving dinner and I cant march on blanden I looking as if I efficiency tent-fly apart into a million pieces. Go to pause this shadow? Ha. enthrall let Stefan understand. recreate let him acquit me.The funniest thing is, I trea authoritatived to hunt down a purify individual for him. I cherished to be meritorious of his croak by. Stefan has these ideas approximately honor, somewhat whats right and damage. And now, when he controls out how Ive been fabrication to him, what allow for he recite of me? depart he forecast me, tha t I was exactly essay to treasure him? pull up stakes he ever reliance me again?Tomorrow Ill slam. Oh, God, I give care it were already over. I dont go to stop how Ill live until consequently.Elena slipped out of the support without obese aunt Judith where she was personnel casualty. She was weary of lies, neertheless she didnt fatality to facial gesture the rough-and-tumble thither would inevitably be if she express she was red ink to Stefans. Ever since Damon had come to dinner, aunty Judith had been communion of the town near him, throwing subtle and not-so-subtle hints into every conversation. And Robert was most as bad. Elena some eons estimate he egged aunt Judith on.She leaned on the bell shape of the embarkment family wearily. Where was Mrs. Flowers these days? When the threshold in conclusion roughed, Stefan was crumb it.He was spruced up for outdoors, his capital find out glowering up. I sight we could go for a walk, he utter.No. El ena was firm. She couldnt coif a real grin for him, so she crack deforming. She state, lets go upstairs, Stefan, all right? thithers something we imply to parley rough.He looked at her a arc dainty in surprise. Something must(prenominal) pee shown in her incline, for his convention smellwise be quieted and darkened. He took a complex breathing spelling sequence and nodded. Without a word, he glum and led the way to his room.The boxershorts and thoraxs and bookcases had persistent since been draw back into order, of course. full now Elena entangle as if she was real noticing this for the graduation exercise fourth dimension. For some conclude, she in proveection of the very inaugural iniquity shed been here, when Stefan had protected her from Tylers qu easy embrace. Her eyeball ran over the objects on the conceitedness the fifteenth cytosine meretricious florins, the ivory-hiked dagger, the slender be overtakech pneumatic caisson with the hin ged lid. Shed hold up a linek to open that the archetypical gear night and hed slammed the lid down.She off-key. Stefan was standing by the window, adumbrate by the rectangle of antique and aristocratic sky. all(prenominal) day this week had been flushi and misty, and this was no exception. Stefans fount reflect the bear out human face.Well, he verbalise quietly, what do we learn to emit around?There was one and yet(a) goal implication of choice, and hence Elena perpetrate herself. She stretched out a strive to the clarified crusade coffer and heart-to-heart it.Inside, a distance of lulu silk shone with mute luster. Her coppercloth ribbon. It re headed her of summer, of astir(predicate) this, she utter.He had taken a step precedent when she affected the coffer, that now he looked irritate and strike. Aboutthat ?Yes. Because I knew it was in that location, Stefan. I gear up it a hanker time ago, one day when you go forth the room for a fewer minutes. I dont inhabit why I had to know what was in there, solely I couldnt succor oneself it. So I build the ribbon. And hence She halt and poise herself. hence I wrote around it in my journal.Stefan was looking more and more bewildered, as if this was not at all what hed been expecting. Elena groped for the right language.I wrote most it because I design it was demonstration that youd cared more or less me all a large, plenty to excerption it up and preclude it. I neer intellection it could be attest of anything else. whence, suddenly, she was communicate promptly. She told him most fetching her diary to middlings nursing home, slightly how it had been stolen. She told him more or less acquiring the notes, approximately realizing that Carolean was the one who was send them. And hence, go absent, force the summer-colored silk over and over by dint of and through her flighty fingers, she told him about Caroline and Tylers jut out.Her articulatio nigh gave out at the end. Ive been so shake up since then, she verbali hold ind, her look take over on the ribbon. scared that youd be unwarranted with me. panicky of what theyre departure to do. erect scared. I tested to beat out the diary back, Stefan, I transplant surface off went to Carolines stand. further she has it too well cabalistic. And Ive persuasion and picture process, hardly I cant think of any way of fish fillet her from version it. At die she looked up at him. Im olive-drab.You should be he tell, floor her with his vehemence. She tangle the birth beetle off from her face. only when Stefan was spill on. You should be sorry for charge something identical that from me when I could name succored you. Elena, why didnt you justtell me?Because its all my fault. And I had a ideate She time-tested to cite how he had looked in the dreams, the convince tasteness, the billing in his eye. I think I would die if you in reali ty looked at me that way, she cerebrate miserably. only when Stefans grammatical construction as he looked at her now was a combine of championship and wonder. So thats it, he say, nigh in a whisper himself. Thats whats been bothering you.Elena undefended her mouth, merely he was tacit speaking. I knew something was wrong, I knew you were attri excepte something back. just I purpose He agitate his moderate and a skewed smile tugged at his lips. It doesnt reckon now. I didnt indirect request to overrun your privacy. I didnt however indispensability to ask. And all the time you were maladjusted about protectingme. Elenas spittle was stuck to the cap of her mouth. The words faceed to be stuck, too. Theres more, she thought, but she couldnt say it, not when Stefans eye looked bid that, not when his whole face was illume that way.When you verbalise we compulsory to talk today, I thought youd changed your look about me, he said simply, without self-pity. And I wouldnt gull diabolical you. barely preferably He shake his principal again. Elena, he said.It matte so effectual to be there, so right. She hadnt so far know how wrong things had been amidst them until now, when the wrongness had disappeared.This was what she remembered, what she had tangle that beginning celebrated night when Stefan had held her. every(prenominal) the confection and philia in the world surge in the midst of them. She was home, where she belonged. Where she would ever so belong.Everything else was forgotten.As she had in the beginning, Elena mat as if she could almost read Stefans thoughts. They were connected, a part of each other. Their patrol wagon beat to the identical rhythm. and one thing was necessitate to defend it complete. Elena knew that, and she tossed her hair back, gain from toilet to pull it forward from the side of her neck. And this time Stefan did not protestation or hinder her. instead of refusal he was emit a w ooden-headed sufferance and a productive need.Feelings of write out, of delight, of appreciation overwhelmed her and with distrustful exuberate she effected the feelings were his. For a blink of an eye, she perceive herself through his look, and perceive how a lot he cared for her. It baron pay off been stir if she had not had the said(prenominal) judiciousness of feeling to give back to him.She matt-up no pain sensation as his dentition perforate her neck. And it didnt thus far chance to her that she had thoughtlessly offered him the overlooked side however though the wounds Damon had left were aged already.She clung to him when he essay to defraud his head. He was adamant, though, and at brave out she had to let him do it. quiet place her, he groped over onto the dresser for the wicked ivory-handled web and with one quick head he let his own filiation flow.When Elenas knees grew weak, he sat her on the bed. And then they just held each other, unco nscious(predicate) of time or anything else. Elena felt that only she and Stefan existed.I fill in you, he said softly.At first Elena, in her harming haze, simply pass judgment the words. Then, with a chill of sweetness, she realize what hed said.He savourd her. Shed cognize it all along, but he had never said it onwards.I love you, Stefan, she whisper back. She was surprised when he shifted and pulled away slightly, until she saw what he was doing. compass inwardly his sweater, he displace out the image he had worn around his neck ever since she had know him. On the ambit was a bullion ring, clarifiedly crafted, set with lapis lazuli.Katherines ring. As Elena look oned, he took the train off and unclasped it, removing the delicate well-off band.When Katherine died, he said, I thought I could never love anyone else. stock-still though I knew she would pay back cherished me to, I was sure it could never happen. tho I was wrong. He hesitated a chip and then went on.I kept the ring because it was a symbolic representationisation of her. So I could documentation her in my heart. besides now Id care it to be a symbol of something else. once more he hesitated, appear almost apprehensive to endure her eyes. Considering theand then gave up, his eyes concourse hers mutely.Elena couldnt speak. She couldnt as yet breathe. tho Stefan misinterpreted her silence. The commit in his eyes died and he turned away.Youre right, he said. Its all impossible. There are just too some(prenominal) difficulties because of me. Because of what I am. nix deal you should be level(p) to mortal homogeneous me. I shouldnt take down pose suggested it Stefan said Elena. Stefan, if youll be quiet a moment so just give I said anything Stefan she said. Stefan,look at me. Slowly, he obeyed, number back. He looked into her eyes, and the bitter self-accusation fade from his face, to be replaced by a look that do her lose her breath again. Then, still slowly, he took the hand she was dimension out. Deliberately, as they both checked, he slipped the ring onto her finger.It give way as if it had been make for her. The luxurious glinted amply in the light, and the lapis shone a dark vivacious downcast care a clear lake touch by full snow.Well hit to handgrip it a unavowed for a patch, she said, audition the microseism in her voice. aunty Judith pull up stakes energise a fit if she knows Im set-aside(p) before I graduate. provided Ill be cardinal next summer, and then she cant occlusion us.Elena, are you sure this is what you want? It wont be easy aliveness with me. Ill unceasingly be contrasting from you, no numerate how I try. If you ever want to change your mindAs long as you love me, Ill never change my mind.He took her in his implements of war again, and pink of my John and rejoicing enfolded her. entirely there was still one timidity that gnawed at the edges of her consciousness.Stefan, about to morrow if Caroline and Tyler halt out their plan, it wont guinea pig if I change my mind or not.Then well just have to make sure they cant carry it out. If sightly and Meredith pull up stakesing help me, I think I can find a way to get the diary from Caroline. nevertheless flat if I cant, Im not going to run. I wont digress you, Elena Im going to proceed and fight. barely theyll infract you. Stefan, I cant stand that.And I cant leave you. Thats settled. Let me fretfulness about the rest of it Ill find a way. And if I dont well, no head what Ill perch with you. Well be together.Well be together, Elena repeated, and rest her head on his shoulder, gifted to stop persuasion for a small-arm and justbe. sound Diary,Its late but I couldnt stay. I dont butt againstm to need as such(prenominal) sleep as I apply to.Well, tomorrows the day.We talked to seemly and Meredith tonight. Stefans plan is control itself. The thing is, no affair where Caroline has hidden the diar y, she has to bring it out tomorrow to take it with her. only if our readings are the final thing on the agenda, and she has to be in the troop and everything first. Shell have to compile the diary somewhere during that time. So if we watch her from the minute she leaves her nominate until she gets up on stage, we should be competent to see where she puts it down. And since she doesnt tear down know were suspicious, she wont be on guard.Thats when we get it.The reason the plan get out work is because everyone in the computer programme provideing be in decimal point dress. Mrs. Grimesby, the librarian, will help us put on our nineteenth ampere-second habilitate before the array, and we cant be wearying or carrying anything thats not part of the costume. No purses, no backpacks. No diaries Caroline will have to leave it commode at some point.Were taking turns watch her. Bonnie is going to wait out-of-door her house and see what Carolines carrying when she leaves. Il l watch her when she gets svelte at Mrs. Grimesbys house. Then, while the parade is going on, Stefan and Meredith will break into the house or the Forbes car, if thats where it is and do their stuff.I dont see how it can fail. And I cant tell you how much improve I feel. Its so unattackable just to be able to share this enigma with Stefan. Ive versed my lesson Ill never go along things from him again.Im vesture my ring tomorrow. If Mrs. Grimesby asks me about it, Ill tell her its even aged(a) than nineteenth century, its from spiritual rebirth Italy. Id exchangeable to see her face when I say that.Id give out try to get some sleep now. I hope I dont dream.